Little Girl in her Mamma's shoes

I had to post this as it was just so sweet. My daughter is 15 months and she is obsessed with putting shoes away in the storage bench. The other day she picked up my flip flops and carried them to the storage bench. She then put them on the floor and went all quiet. When we peeked she was stood there trying to put her feet in the right part of the flip flop with the toe band in the right place.

This simple act of pure curiosity and innocence was so refreshing and magical.

Insomnia. Hello! I haven't seen you in a while

So for those of you who have never experienced sleep deprivation take it from me it's not fun.
I don't know if it's because I'm so excited or the fact that I can't sleep on my belly but I NEED sleep.

It was the same with the last pregnancy and I was so surprised last time. I had never heard of pregnancy insomnia. I thought that all fellow preggos could sleep anywhere due to exhaustion. How wrong was I. I was prescribed ambien last time which I hated as I felt I was drugging the baby but I felt so good once I finally slept. I think my husband was excited at the fact that One of the side effects was having sex while not fully conscious. I'm sad to say sorry husband but I was one of the few that didn't fall victim..... At least not that he is letting on anyway lol!

So I'm gonna play it by ear but we will see if I can get any sleep this week.

Wardrobe issues

So I am 7 weeks along now and I swear I look like I did at 3 months last time. I have a definite bump. I have given up trying to hide it at work because I just went through weightwatchers and suddenly ballooned. Between that and throwing up rather publicly they all guessed. The issue is with neighbours, family and friends. I have some friends trying to get pregnant and I feel nervous to tell them as I know when I was trying to conceive I hated everyone who was pregnant. Yes it's completely irrational but I wanted them and their fertile womb away from me.

So with the wardrobe I have had to be creative. Lots of flowy dresses. Nothing clingy and if I can I will carry my daughter to disguise the bump. All of my old maternity clothes were from winter and we are in the height of summer so I will just have to go to the shops.

Nose of a bloodhound

One weird side effect of pregnancy that not many people talk about is the sense of smell.  I could probably beat my dog in any sniffer dog contest right now.

I dread opening my fridge as it smells like everything is off and my husband looks at me as if im mad.  We came in the house last night after being out and I swore that the house smelt of....well...sh!t for lack of a better word.  I said to my husband..."please tell me you smell sh!t"  he responded with "no"  i said "what do you smell?" He responded, "nothing. it smells really clean".

Its so confusing.  I proceeded to clean the kitchen....again as i was convinced the waste disposal smelt.  I can also smell my daughters diaper movements within minutes of her doing them... I will say "  i think she has pooed"  and my husband will say that he cant smell a thing.  Lo and behold when we checked she has pooed.

Lets not even talk about the diaper genie.  There is only so much smell that those gadgets can keep inside.

I guess the upside is border patrol could hire me to sniff out the coke heads lol!!

Morning sickness is not time sensitive

Morning means nothing.  For me the sickness comes at any time of day.  I have rarely actually thrown up but when I have it has been at work of all places.  My office all know as it was just to hard to hide it.  Most of the times I just get the wave of nausea.

For those of you wishing to know what it feels like lets do a little exercise:

You have eaten very little all day.  you go for a "quick drink"  at lunch with a friend.  You stay until the rest of your friends come out in the evening.  You have a quick bag of pork scratchings then continue to drink.  You have a very questionable kebab on the way home and get home at about 1am.  You then drink some hot milk and go to bed.  You look up and the window jumps off the wall and starts spinning around the room and the only thing you can do to stop it is have one arm and one leg out of the bed.  Any slight movement threatens to show your stomach content................WELCOME TO MORNING SICKNESS!

What makes it worse is my sense of smell.  Everything in my house smells grose! normally nice smells do not make me want to chunder everywhere!

Cold baths again

Pregnancy is a marvelous thing but even everyday things make you realize just how fragile our bodies are and just how risky the first trimester is.  I suffer from back pain and towards the end of the day my lower back feels like its on fire!

The only thing that cures it is a nice hot bath.  Sadly the OBGYN said hot baths are a no go.  I cant let my body temperature go above 101 degrees so that means the bath water can be no hotter than 100 degrees.  Sounds hot right?

Think again.  Its that really annoying kind of luke warm. The temperature where you would instantly turn on the tap and feel the hot water slowly seep down the bath.  But no.....Im stuck in a luke warm bath with a huge swimming pool thermometer which I now obsessively check every 5 minutes hoping and praying that it goes to 99 degrees so that I can put in some hot water.

Needless to say my back doesn't really get soothed so I go back to old faithful. My hot water bottle.  It works a charm most of the time.  unlike last night when the numpty I am I wasn't watching as I was filling it up and got the wooly cover a bit wet.  I felt a bit soggy.

I just have to focus on the positive.  There is a beautiful baby growing in there and it is a pure delight to be pregnant again. 

The sono-dildo!

Well it was our 6 week scan the other day.  i braced myself for another encounter with the dreaded sono dildo.  Why is it that Hollywood never shows someone getting a 6 week scan trans vaginally????  I was terrified the first time round when I went for that.  I had never heard of having a sono done like that because no one tells you!!!

The bit that makes me laugh is the way they put a condom on it.  I mean....really?????  Its not like I'm going to get pregnant.....well more pregnant than I really am.

So all went well this time.  Thanks to my daughter making more than enough room on the way out There was no discomfort.  We saw the tiny little heartbeat which was the most reassuring thing.  Whenever I go for the 6 week scan I cant help but get that scene from Marley and me out of my head where Jen Aniston and Owen Wilson are told there is no heartbeat. 

There is a small bleed in utero but nothing to worry about (yeah right! dont tell me then cos now i will worry).  Now every time I go to the loo I get petrified Im going to see blood.

Thankfully we left with smiles on our faces and 2 pictures of our little kidney bean.