That was what my hubby heard mostly today from me. I had an ABSOLUTE meltdown. Today was not good. It started with me not sleeping at all last night. I was exhausted. I then felt like the baby moved down a little so I was extremely uncomfortable. I got a headache, felt sick and have painful legs. Definitely something I will be mentioning to the midwife on Wednesday. I just have not felt well all day. In fact the pain in my back felt just like the early back labor I had with my first born.
It was literally like the small of my back was on fire. My inside of my lady garden felt like it was stretching but that is probably psychological.
I had tried to nap while my daughter was napping this afternoon. I basically have a 3 hour window. I couldn't sleep so I went downstairs and just broke down into tears. I felt useless and doubted my abilities as a mum. I felt like I just couldn't keep going as if it was all fine because today it was not. I then realized I still have 5 weeks to go and that tipped me over the edge.
I then have the reality check and remember that there are people out there who would love to be at the stage I'm at so I need to remember that and realize how lucky I am and to stop wallowing in self pity.
Please pray for a good night sleep tonight.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Weird craving
Two words!!!!! Sugar puffs!!!!! Oh my god! I am sat in the bath right now watching shameless on NetFlix. The UK shameless not the American one. All I can think about is eating a massive bowl of sugar puffs covered in ice cold whole milk. In fact I would like the bath to be full of sugar puffs. It's not even the branded stuff, it's our local supermarkets own brand that doesn't even come in a box, it comes in a bag.
Yes, it might smell of the first pee of the morning but I can't help myself.
Yes, it might smell of the first pee of the morning but I can't help myself.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Artistic flair or just plain exhibitionist
This weekend I had something done that I will never forget. No mummy I haven't got a tattoo and no more piercings. It all started from Halloween when I painted my belly to look like a pumpkin.
It turned out there was an artist at the local school and a photographer who had an idea and they just needed a guinea pig. Preferably a heavily pregnant guinea pig. Hello! I'm your guinea pig. The idea was to start adding to the photography and have an artist paint your belly whilst pregnant and have professional photos taken. That is actually paint ON your belly, not have a painting done OF your belly.
The design we chose was a cherry tree with blossom blowing in the wind. There was also a butterfly to signify my daughter as she has butterflies all over her room.
It was STUNNING! I turned up and got to the studio and I thought right let's strip down! Hell if we are gonna showcase this let's do this properly. So off came the bra and out came the fun bags too. How on earth was this artist going to put that stunning work on to my bulbous boobs and belly?????
She did it though! An hour forty five later she was done and it looked amazing. 10 mins of photography and the session was complete.
I can't wait to see the pictures and I can highly recommend this creative unique way of remembering the pregnancy. No one else is doing it in our area so I hope this works out well for the artist and photographer.
I just hope people don't think that I am an escaped manity from sea world!
It turned out there was an artist at the local school and a photographer who had an idea and they just needed a guinea pig. Preferably a heavily pregnant guinea pig. Hello! I'm your guinea pig. The idea was to start adding to the photography and have an artist paint your belly whilst pregnant and have professional photos taken. That is actually paint ON your belly, not have a painting done OF your belly.
The design we chose was a cherry tree with blossom blowing in the wind. There was also a butterfly to signify my daughter as she has butterflies all over her room.
It was STUNNING! I turned up and got to the studio and I thought right let's strip down! Hell if we are gonna showcase this let's do this properly. So off came the bra and out came the fun bags too. How on earth was this artist going to put that stunning work on to my bulbous boobs and belly?????
She did it though! An hour forty five later she was done and it looked amazing. 10 mins of photography and the session was complete.
I can't wait to see the pictures and I can highly recommend this creative unique way of remembering the pregnancy. No one else is doing it in our area so I hope this works out well for the artist and photographer.
I just hope people don't think that I am an escaped manity from sea world!
Henry the Eighth: complete twat but also complete genius
Well I guess I better explain myself. Out of all the monarchs in England I have never read as much literature as I have about Henry 8th. I don't know if it's because he was a complete arshole or that he was the only person brave enough to claim himself the head of the church but recently I realized he is a friggin genius.
Whether he got the idea from watching one of his many ill fated wives being pregnant or not but he saw a problem and he found a solution.
In Hampton Court Henry by now being the size of a small planet struck upon a problem that I am also experiencing. I can no longer eat my food with the plate on the table as I can't bend forward enough to eat it. I have to put my plate on my bump and sit back and eat it that way.
Henry's solution? Cut a hole for your belly in the table!!! BINGO! Pass me 6 pheasants wench and top up my Meade! How simple and how effective!
That bloke was an absolute mentalist but I can't help but love the guy.
Whether he got the idea from watching one of his many ill fated wives being pregnant or not but he saw a problem and he found a solution.
In Hampton Court Henry by now being the size of a small planet struck upon a problem that I am also experiencing. I can no longer eat my food with the plate on the table as I can't bend forward enough to eat it. I have to put my plate on my bump and sit back and eat it that way.
Henry's solution? Cut a hole for your belly in the table!!! BINGO! Pass me 6 pheasants wench and top up my Meade! How simple and how effective!
That bloke was an absolute mentalist but I can't help but love the guy.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Legs akimbo!
This little one doesn't seem to know the meaning of nice gentle fluid leg movement. Nope! Sadly this young bean thinks she is auditioning for the Rockettes. My whole belly today veered off to one side when she kicked her legs to the left and her bum to the right. I looked like some weird Pablo Picasso style abstract.
The movements of the baby now feel really uncomfortable. It squishes everything so tight. I can't eat as much now as I just feel sick when she moves. Her bottom is easily identifiable and her back too. I can feel her legs every now and then. It makes it VERY real!
When she hiccups now I feel uncomfortable. Jeez I'm never bloody happy am I haha! No joking aside, I am really excited. 6 weeks to go! I cannot wait to meet her and introduce her to Emily. This is really happening isnt it!!!!!
The movements of the baby now feel really uncomfortable. It squishes everything so tight. I can't eat as much now as I just feel sick when she moves. Her bottom is easily identifiable and her back too. I can feel her legs every now and then. It makes it VERY real!
When she hiccups now I feel uncomfortable. Jeez I'm never bloody happy am I haha! No joking aside, I am really excited. 6 weeks to go! I cannot wait to meet her and introduce her to Emily. This is really happening isnt it!!!!!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Taking the strain
I'm at that stage now where I have no idea if I need a poo or if it is just the baby heading on down for a little look around my cervix. I will be sitting there one minute absolutely fine and then oh there we go! Gotta go curl one out.
I waddle on down to the ladies as quick as I can and sit there. Now I have to contend with the stupid automatic lights that switch off after 5 mins of no movement lol pun completely intended.
I then have this urge to try and push it out but then my stupid mothers brain says I shouldn't do that as I always think what it I strain too hard and push the baby out. I mean has that ever happened? Is it even scientifically possible. 3 minutes and Counting and still no joy. I then do the old Lamaze pant to see if that will shift things. If there is still no joy the. It must just be that little baby is taking a look around.
For you first timers don't strain. For one thing you need to keep breathing normally for baby. So don't hold your breath and push just yet Secondly you will only get a nose bleed or burst a blood vessel in your eye. Thirdly just look at the ridiculous face you are pulling. That is SO not attractive and trust me we all need to look our best right now.
I feel like sea world are gonna house me in their manity enclosure soon!
Just over 6 weeks to go now can you believe it!!!!!
I waddle on down to the ladies as quick as I can and sit there. Now I have to contend with the stupid automatic lights that switch off after 5 mins of no movement lol pun completely intended.
I then have this urge to try and push it out but then my stupid mothers brain says I shouldn't do that as I always think what it I strain too hard and push the baby out. I mean has that ever happened? Is it even scientifically possible. 3 minutes and Counting and still no joy. I then do the old Lamaze pant to see if that will shift things. If there is still no joy the. It must just be that little baby is taking a look around.
For you first timers don't strain. For one thing you need to keep breathing normally for baby. So don't hold your breath and push just yet Secondly you will only get a nose bleed or burst a blood vessel in your eye. Thirdly just look at the ridiculous face you are pulling. That is SO not attractive and trust me we all need to look our best right now.
I feel like sea world are gonna house me in their manity enclosure soon!
Just over 6 weeks to go now can you believe it!!!!!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy new year!
Holy Crap I'm having a baby next month. I woke up this morning and just realized this. It was lovely to wake up and not have a hangover or be hugging the toilet or wondering g where my left shoe went to and where did that bruise come from?
It is definitely a different type of holiday when you are sober but it is refreshing. I was at a party last night watching everyone else getting drunk. I had to retire early sadly as I was exhausted. I had a very sore back so I went to bed and must have just collapsed as I woke up in the same position.
I hope you all have a very prosperous new year. I am really looking forward to meeting my 2nd daughter x
Much love xxxx
It is definitely a different type of holiday when you are sober but it is refreshing. I was at a party last night watching everyone else getting drunk. I had to retire early sadly as I was exhausted. I had a very sore back so I went to bed and must have just collapsed as I woke up in the same position.
I hope you all have a very prosperous new year. I am really looking forward to meeting my 2nd daughter x
Much love xxxx
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